Do you ever do it? I do. Sometimes too many times in one day.
I know it is not good. But at times I feel it is the only option.
What about you?
I am talking about escaping. Running away. Allowing the overwhelming parts of life to overwhelm to the point of hiding.
How do I hide or escape? My go-to escape is Facebook. I hate it. I have this love/hate addiction to Facebook. The worst part is I think I can control it, and well I can’t.
So when life is crazy here, when I want to yell (and sometimes after I yell) I turn to cope with Facebook. I don’t stop and realize that Jesus is right there in the midst of my being overwhelmed. I don’t stop and pray that He would give me what I need to deal with what I am running from. I run. I hide.
So, today I deleted Facebook off my phone. I admit, it may not be permanent, but for now it is necessary. I need to face life. I need to be here. I need to deal with the hand I am dealt and not cope by entering the alternate reality of Facebook. You know?
We do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who had been tempted in every way, just as we are – yet was without sin. Let us approach the throne of grace with confidence , so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. Hebrews 4:15-16
Oh, my. I need to put this somewhere to remember, maybe a screen saver to stop me when I am tempted to run.
I serve a priest who knows about temptation, and while sometimes I might add “but not the temptation we face with children” – but really, those disciples were just like children!! He faced trials and he never ran away, instead he ran into it. He stood his ground or he went deeper.
When I run I miss the chance to go deeper with my kids, with my struggle, with my need. I miss it because I run away, and the moment is gone.
So, instead of running (for a while) I hope to stand firm, lean in to my struggle, and see where God leads me and what God teaches me.
Want to join me?